Me 109 Cito

Howdy!

It has been awhile since I last posted something that has happened in my life. Anyways...A man and his son are in a car crash. The father is killed and the child is taken to hospital gravely injured. When he gets there, the surgeon says, 'I can't operate on this boy - for he is my son!!!' How can this possibly be?

I'm super upset that this past LG meeting was the last one of the semester! Although I can still see the ones that are here during the summer LG, I will miss those who leave home dearly. It has been a rough week for me, but definitely a lot of growth! Being released from some chains has put me in an extremely vulnerable state that allowed many of Satan's lies and condemnations to enter my life. I was starting to become bitter and out of nowhere, began to feel hatred towards some people. It was terrifying because these people are considered my really close friends, those that stick closer than a brother even, and I was having those awful feelings towards them. NOT COOL!! I totally bought into Satan's lies and began to let my imagination carry me and if you know me, then that is not good at all. Thankfully, during LG, I was blasted away by the Holy Spirit and God revealed to me that because my chains were being broken, because the scars on my heart were being healed, satan was not happy at all! Therefore, he has been trying to trick me into going back to who I was before this semester: bitter, angry, fake, depressed and a sense of hatred for everyone. This semester has been about healing my heart and the scars that were left by different events of my life; obviously, satan is going to try his hardest to ruin my life in every way possible simply because he hates me and wants to see me fall away from God and what God has for me. Silly satan, tricks aren't for me! I was reading Ephesians 4:21-24 and it was exactly what I needed to hear!

"Surely you heard of Him and were taught in Him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. you were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness."

Isn't this just amazing! God transforms us into a new creation! We no longer have to live the same way anymore; we no longer have to feel the same way anymore; we no longer have to be depressed, angry, bitter, lonely, afraid, abandoned, fake, hateful and anything else that destroys our souls! I am a new creation in Christ Jesus! I have two analogies that fit this perfectly.

One is from this book I just finished by McManus and he states that we are all like caterpillars crawling around the world, knowing that there is a much better way to live. We, as people, are just crawling around the earth, doing our business and whatnot, yet we feel in our souls that there just has to be a better way to live. Once we find the Truth, which is Christ, we go through a metamorphosis in a cocoon; we are being prepared to take experience the world in a whole new way. Once we come to know Christ, we are being healed and made into a new form that in no way resembles the life we had before Christ. I mean, have you ever seen a caterpillar and a butterfly?! They are totally not the same at all!!!!!!! A caterpillar has a billion legs and is round, fat, slow and just looks pathetic; whereas, a butterfly has six legs, a smaller body, antennae and, as you may have guessed it, WINGS!!!! I mean, how do you go from wingless to having wings?!!? I really feel that as a follower of Jesus Christ, I have grown wings to embrace the world in a whole new way! I am no longer the same anymore! Although spending time deep in a cocoon and being healed has been painful, the end result is so much better! My worst day as a butterfly is so much better than the best day as a caterpillar!

The other analogy I came up with is life as a hermit crab. When a hermit crab gets to a certain size, then its natural instinct will be to find a new shell in which it can fit inside. Being a hermit crab, I was living miserably inside of that shell that could just not contain who I was. I was in need of something better, a new way to live. Thankfully, Jesus provided me a new shell in which I can live and grow in! He has provided exactly what my soul desires! Trying to go back to acting my old self is the same as rejecting the new shell in which I was given for the shell that could no longer hold me. My soul simply knew that something wasn't right. Why in the world would I ever go back to the shelled life that just didn't fit with my soul? I need to stay with what God provides me, for it will always be good!

Okay the butterfly analogy was so much better than my hermit crab one, but nevertheless, did the point get across?! Through Christ, WE ARE NEW CREATIONS!!! No longer do we have to be the same! God pulled us out of the chaos and closer to Him! WOW!! Isn't that just amazing?!?! God loves us so much that He would personally come down and just pull us out of the dark abyss in which we were born into and save us!! I'm so blown away by His Love, Grace, Mercy and Patience!! No one has ever cared about me more than Him and no one ever will! God is all I need because He will provide the rest! I just have to trust in Him!

So yea, my whole life in a shell right here! *laughter* As I get closer to the summer, I feel like my soul is dropping more and more broken chains that were once clinging on! I'm pretty sure that God will reveal even more to me and that He will continue to show me how much I need Him!

I want to learn more about You, God for I know absolutely nothing! Teach me, show me, astound me, shock me, dazzle me and amaze me of who You are! I love you Dad!

God Bless,
Pabs

P.S. The answer to the riddle if you haven't already figured it out:

The surgeon was the boy's mother! I know, it completely tripped me out to!